Last thursday I underwent Microlaryngoscopy. Which is a laser and balloon dilation on my throat for my Idiopathic Subglottic stenosis. You can read more about my journey here. Basically, It’s scar tissue growing in my throat for no known reason (Idiopathic). So over time it makes it very difficult to breathe and do day-to-day activities. Like carrying my children, taking laundry up and down the stairs of course exercise and pretty much anything else that involves movement! I am so pissed off that I even have this pointless disease but there is absolutely nothing I can do about it, so I have to live life as normal as I can.
Really, I try not to let it stop me. I still exercise, at home, because the heavy breathing is pretty embarrassing, so I am pretty damn proud of that! And hello, motherhood, you really can’t stop, when your child wants to be picked up, you pick them up. When your child wants to play chase, you chase them. It’s an absolute struggle but I am not going to sit around on my bum feeling sorry for myself. I may as well move (and still be pissed off)
Back to the surgery…I had the surgery on thursday. Recovery, I feel didn’t happen so quickly this time around. It hurt more and I was tired beyond the usual 24 hours expected after a full anaesthesia. But let me tell you, I am ELATED! I let myself recover for a few days then on Sunday I did a really good warm room detox restoration yoga. I tried it a couple of weeks back and although it wasn’t too challenging moves wise, it was difficult to breathe through such consistent movement. So I went back this past Sunday and it felt SO GOOD! Monday is always leg day. The past few weeks have been very difficult. I think I spent most the time trying to catch my breath than working out but this past monday it was AMAZING to just feel the pain of my legs and not of trying to catch my breath. I was still out of breath but how normal people feel. It may sound silly to the regular Joe, but I almost wanted to cry from happiness of getting through a workout, that my body is more than capable of doing and not feeling like I’m going to die from not being able to catch my breath!
At this stage it’s a life long issue. It’s just a matter of when it will come back verse if. So I want to enjoy it as much as I can and hopefully I can get at least another 2-3 years out of it like I did this time. Maybe next weekend we will go on a family hike because we CAN!
Photos from the weekend of clearrrr breathing!
We went to the lake to celebrate Joe’s grandparents 65th wedding anniversary and then on sunday the boys went to monster trucks!